I fell while running today...JK. That should be the opener of all my blog entries since I update so infrequently now.

I am a total stress eater. This morning I had a presentation to do in front of our GI faculty about our Web site. I hate presenting...despite how talkative I may be by nature. So last night I did a very bad thing, I ate four pieces of halloween chocolate at work, three pieces of fried chicken, a couple of cupcakes (that Dave's coworker made for him and other items. At midnight I weighed myself out of curiosity. I was 8 lbs heavier than when I stopped South Beach. HORRIBLE.

Weird thing though, I weighed myself this morning and somehow overnight I lost 5 lbs of water.

So, alas, back to the drawing board. I'm going to try to run today and start up my circuit training again :)


Breakfast
-Soy latte, lowfat mixed berry bran muffin

Lunch
- Chicken caesar salad

Snack
- Cookie and and a vanilla latte

Dinner
- Kaitan sushi and a mango

New day, new week...new diet?

Before I went on the South Beach Diet, I purchased the Abs Diet. Heard tons about it through other people's blogs and from articles.

South Beach worked, I lost 10 lbs in three weeks. However, I didn't feel 100% in the process. The strict period made me lethargic, fuzzy brained and cranky. Also, I noticed that I also tend to gain my weight back pretty quickly after going on a strict diet. Its almost like I don't know how to eat normal anymore. Or maybe its the feeling like, since I lost it so quickly - it doesn't matter if I gain it again. I'll just go back the diet (yo-yo dieting trap).

Anyway, so today I'm going to break open my Abs Diet book to see what it entails. I decided to keep up with my food blog again. I definitely need the accountability :)

Breakfast
- Espresso with cream
- Oatmeal (120 calories, 2 gms fat, 24 carbs, 3 gms fiber

Snack
- Lara Bar 180 calories, 10 gms fat :-( and carbs 23, 4 gms fiber

Lunch
- Chicken vegetable soup

I fell while running today. It was the result of being hyperthyroid again, only getting four hours of sleep last night, being weaker from not consistently working out (weights and cardio) and just being burnt out from dieting.

I tried running afterwards, but all I could feel was the pounding from the swelling in my knee. I was pissed because one day missed means one less day I have in burning more calories...which means me falling short of losing five pounds before my procedure next Friday. I took an Advil 10 mins ago hoping that the pain would subside and I will be able to some circuit training (barbell at 2.5 lbs per side).

There is so much pressure to be thin for health and especially for vanity. I was hoping that after South Beach, I would be 110. It hasn't been an easy road. I feel like I've barely eaten anything in the last month and yet I am still fat!

I know I shouldn't give up from this set back. I won't. But I want to vent for the sake of venting. I really don't think anyone who has my condition or my weight/food issues can really understand why this thing is so fucking frustrating. Unfortunately, I am one of those who has to go to extremes with dieting and exercise to see one ounce of difference.

Anyway, okay, back to getting motivated to do weights with my bum knee.

Fuck.

I ran for the first time in a week! It was more jogging and walking than running, but at least I was able to keep moving for more than 30 mins. Maybe I'll try sprinting and walking the 5 miles this Saturday. We'll see.
Anyway, today I'm planning on doing TKB at 6:30. I took a class on Saturday and it kicked my ass! And, afterwards weights. Must do weights!

Food

Breakfast - cheese and cashews, espresso cream

Snack - cashews

Lunch - SB frozen entree

Snack - Jello

Dinner - Sushi

Another weekend has flown by. On Saturday I did pretty well with sticking to the SB plan and I waivered a bit on Sunday. I actually got some good cardio in, I did a TKB class on Saturday which kicked my ass and 50 mins of stairs and elliptical on Sunday. Today I start the new program for weights and planning to do some cardio afterwards.

I decided to day that my strict period is officially over because want to preserve the same excitement or "special-ness" of the strict 14-day period. I am going to stick to a similar SB plan for the next week. Overall, I've lost 10 lbs in the SB diet. I was hoping to lose more, but I'll be glad if I drop five lbs by low carbing it for the next few weeks.

Anyway, this Saturday is Nike Run Hit Remix. D and I went to go exchange my event shirt. I couldn't belive how tight the medium fit. So I ended up getting a large. On the label it says large is sizes 10-12. Yikes! And I thought I was losing weight.

Food

Breakfast - Two pieces of cheese and almonds, espresso and cream

Lunch - chicken breast, salad with sunflower seeds, celery and oil/vinegar and braggs amino.

Snack - cheese, almonds

Dinner - cashews, steak, kalbi, salad with ranch

Dessert - fudge bar

SB Day 16

I've been lazy in posting lately. However, I've been good with SB. Yesterday, I had the usual nuts and cheese for breakfast, frozen SB entree for lunch and chicken and veggies (and a glass of wine) at Houstons for dinner. Even though I had a energy bar on Tuesday and a glass of wine yesterday, I've dropped a pound. We'll see what happens these next two weeks. I scheduled my appointment on Sept 21 for my thyroid procedure. That's my short time goal date to wrap up this first phase of SB.

Food

Breakfast - almonds, cheese and coffee

Snack - sugar free jello and almonds

Lunch - chicken caesar salad

Snack - espresso and cream and cheesestick

Dinner - chicken and gyro salad

Dessert - sugar free jello

Holiday from SB

This past weekend I completely strayed away from following South Beach, but resolved to continue doing phase one for another two weeks beginning today. I lost about 8-10 lbs from the first two weeks and figured I can hopefully lose another 10 before I get my thyroid procedure done the end of September. I decided too that because of the diet, I won't be able to fully train for Run Hit Remix. At least jogging and walking will allow me to fully enjoy the acts.

Anyway, I've been boosting my cardio the past two days. Doing 45 mins of the stair mill and elliptical on Saturday and 50+ mins of the same thing yesterday. I'm hoping to begin the weight program again today.

Highlights of what I ate this past weekend

Saturday - high tea consisting of scones, sandwiches and petit fours; mochi and mango pinkberry (yum!), dinner at cheesecake factory, ce fiore frozen yogurt with strawberries, mango and mochi

Sunday - dim sum and kaitan sushi

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Today's Eats

Breakfast - light babybel cheese, almonds, double espresso and cream